Bah....I know I know...bad me *smeks wrist* I haven't updated in a while. So I think I will take this opportunity to do so....valiantly.

Err.....my semi-new kitty Miss Beans [Mala] is due to have her kitty babies in 7 days....kinda like THE RING....except with kittens instead of crazy little girls that live in wells. Hmmm....that reminds me.....I never did see THE RING 2.....what can I say, Sin City just looked more kick ass.

Oh lookit me, getting off the subject and such hoo.....alright. I got Mala's nesting box in PERFECT order and boy if I were a pregnant cat due any day, I sure would choose that spiffy box as a nursery I would.

I think I shall confine her to my room tonight..though I probably should've a week ago. Actually I did, but I just didn't see the point of confining her when she wasn't showing any signs of "queening". Poor little thing had one UPSET tummy today and she just wanted to be held.

She did nothing but eat [tons] and sleep [more tons] all day and while she was awake she was just so uncomfortable. I finally felt her little babies moving and it was weird. I was holing her and all of a sudden I felt two hard flutter pokes in her belly.

At first I thought it was me and then I thought it was just her purring but nope, babies. Ahhh, this is just so precious....but, it will never happen again. I'm going to get her and Baby both sterilized ASAP.

I mean kittens are wonderful and all but I just don't want to have to put Mala through another pregnancy. That, and there's the whole cat overpopulation thing. I don't think the area I'm in has such a huge problem because there aren't any strays and at the shelter there're never many cats and the ones that are there usually find homes.

Even still, I'm sure if Mala produced no more the Polar Ice Caps wouldn't melt. I hope everything goes well. I'm fully prepared to take care of the kittens and Mala especially with the birth. I've got dental floss white iodine and a hemostat to boot.

Whatever that means.....to boot....oh well, I just felt like using it I suppose. I really should be getting to sleep....specially since my Mountain Dew is elfineto and that's what was keeping me ali...err awake.

I think I'm going to ditch on doing the dishes because....well....I CAN and quite frankly I just don't want to do them. Ugh, I'm tired. It is times like these I wish I had my own room....seriously, my sister has gone off the deep end and I can't sleep in the same room with that crazy beech.

The light is STILL on @ 2:44am and I for one want to go to sleep and take Mala with me BUUUT, I DO NOT want to sleep in a room with the door closed with that psychotic trainwreck. She done did SOMETHING [more than once] with some boy [maybe more] and now her conscience is dining on her innards and making her act like a complete and total ROTARD.

She makes me sick and if it were up to me I'd have her shot. But then again, it's not up to me, as previously mentioned. I mean, I know sisters are supposed to be "supportive" [I guess] and loving or whatever, but after growing up with that wacko I've realized that she's an idiot and she's getting what she deserves and it's not my support.

She's always been a drama-queen that's completely self-absorbed and it finally came back and not only bit her right square in the butt...it completely ripped her a new one. All I can do is just sit back and watch every one of her screws come loose and not feel the least bit bad for her.

She is OFFICIALLY the STUUUUUUPIDEST person I know. Seriously, they don't get much more brainless than that cretin. I can't believe her and I'm appalled by her completely. As far as I 'm concerned, the sister I grew up with is dead and some lame sub-par wanna-be replacement with MANY issues has filled up the empty space. Quite honestly I miss my sister and as of now I'm the saddest person there ever was.

I TRIED to help her before anything bad happened, but would she listen? Nope. So she got herself into this mess despite all my and everyone else's warnings, she can get her thoroughly imbecilic loser self out of it, her AND her Jezebel of a "friend".

I could go on, but it would probably lead to me getting completely pissed off and then swearing muchly and no one wants that, do we kids? Besides, I'm tired of talking about it.....litterally. I have little to NO respect [leaning more towards none] for promiscuous people, you could be my best friend and if I find out that you're screwing around everything changes.

I tend to be very impatient with this type of person and they disgust me to the point where I have to excommunicate them. It is because these type of people have no self control, are easily swayed and are headstrong, impulsive, and impatient. For these reasons alone I believe that they are of lower intelligence and anyone who is not up to par with myself I tend not to get along with.

And that's not to say that I'm some great all knowing genius, I'm DEFINITELY not, I don't even know that I'd be considered "smart" at all, but I do prefer to surround myself with people of like mind. I, like most people, do not like stupid people unless of course there is some benefit to be acquired from their sheer stupidity.

They usually cause more trouble than they're worth and generally degrade the air around them. It amazes me how many people are willing to throw away something so sacred like it was nothing and not even put so much as an ounce of thought into what they could be losing and the possibility of an unwanted something they could be gaining.

Maybe my line of reasoning makes people think of me as pompous, but in all honesty, it is humanly impossible for me to care any less. I especially don't care if people think I'm judgmental because really, saying someone is judgmental automatically makes you the same. I always thought that was funny *snicker*

Anyway, I'm not saying I'm better than anyone, I'm just so tired of being utterly disappointed by people. Humans should have so much more respect for what they've got and they don't and it saddens as well as pisses me off, and I'm not even talking about sexual crap. Humans in general are just superbly special, gifted in a completely divine way and they don't even realize what intriguingly beautiful creatures they are, they would much rather act like primates.

I truly don't understand some people sometimes, and with a lot of them, there's just no getting through to them. This also brings to light my theory on a hard lesson vs an easy one, a lot of people require specific undeniable evidence or a suckerpunch to the ovaries to set them straight. I wouldn't call it a bad thing per se, but sometimes somethings can really be just a little easier.

I believe that once you substitute emotion for reason a whole universe of clairity will become readily accessible to you. I finally figured this out myself and many things that I would fight and fight and turn over in my mind for WEEKS to try to understand could usually be answered in the simplest of ways, sometimes even only requiring a single word.

Of course, there are still a great many things that I do not understand, granted, I still have a lot to learn and I'm just as imperfect as the next person, but I do try and all I ask is that humans start acting like the superior beings they are instead of opting for the primitive life of an animal without the consequential binding of an active conscience. You really could just THINK before you do things, that is what we are all here for.

The ability is there, use it.

DeJA vU

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